desperate hero....wanting to be saved in a foreign place...somebody help me....

somebody save me......well thats all i can remember from smallville's song, even though i hate that show, but kinda like the theme song though, especially at this moment. At this moment, me being away from home for the first time in my damn 35 fucking years of life. Well, i'm coming to my 3rd month now, so far so good, not that good, but Alhamdullilah for what I've received and that i've not. if somebody can give me 150k, i will definately go home..hahah..call me non-grateful bitch if you want, but that's how i feel right now.

well, i just can't seem to update my facebook at this point, not quite sure why, but i just can't. i guess here is where i shall pour out my soul, in hope some freaky weirdo will somehow give me 150k? amin....

Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just save, save
Come on
I've been waiting for you

positive! positive! positive!!!!!!!

Positive! Positive! Positive!...yup..thats what Allan used to tell me...rite to my face, at the time when all I do was just to complain....complain...complain. I guess we tend to do that alot...I m sure..but then again..there are those who chose to keep shut about almost everything...even to their last breath...but what can I do..Im not one of those nobel people...I like to let things out...get it out of my chest..out of my intoxicated system(the only thing intoxicating me at that time was my uncle SALEM-menthol). But I learned something...after Allan told me off that day(i think it was somewhere...before he left for bintulu for gud..so so sad)...I didnt learn immediately on that day..oh no..I was furious...n i guess i must have complain about him to somebody else..hahahah..but later..i realised..its true...whatever he said was true. THAT IN LIFE..SOMETIMeS ITS JUST GUD TO KEEP OUR DAMN BLOODY F-CK-NG MOUTH SHUT!! betul tak noq?? betullll kannnnn..

And why is this the topic for the day?? well..for one..there's just too many things happening..well not that many..but still a lot thats goin on...that sometimes i just feel like quitting...quitting whatever it is that im doin..including life.

But...Im not gonna do that..not just yet...Ive gone thru too much to just let it go off easily....way too much..so..im not gonna complain..not just yet...hehehe...those were the days when i spent like 500 bucks just on phone calls to call nd..jrol..n allan..yes..even selepas ku dimarah...aku masih tidak serik...Ampun tuanku...nope..im just gonna write here..while listening to my new liking of music..beautiful songs by ungu..peter pan..rossa..n samsons..and...my new fav song is NALuri lelaki..gosh..im so lesbian!!

well...thats it...my thoughts for today...for now. more to come?

i hate this!

i really hate this..just when i thought i can get this thing started..my working place seems to block the page..i really wish somebody can help me out here...forget about asking the it technichian...he'll be thinking that I have sooo much of free time (which i really do have)that I can spend it all on blogging.
i just don get it...we just cant open the blog page. Funny thing is...i can still have access to the main blogger page..so thats why im still writting...even though i cant see..or read anyone else's page...damn bloody irritating son of a pig....wow...sudah lama tak mencarut...miss the gud ole times when i curse as much as i smoke...but...i sort of quit both...life sucks.

well...my two other sifus said they are gonna link my page to theirs...i guess they too have plenty of time for blogging...hehehe...Ampun tuanku...

anyway..thats all for now..need to change my clothes..me smell like kambing...n yes..i really do smell like kambing rite now.

desperate heroes - the beginning

well...wonder what makes me wanna start this...must be the influence of the 2 elderlies in my life...nd toda and allan lajot..my 2 best buddies...who somehow taught me that its ok to be a biatch...

anyway..just to of getting this started..will do more when i can find time...heheheh that wont be for long

oh ya..why desperate heroes? i guess in each and everyone of us...there's a hero...desperately..wanting to be wanted..to be needed..to save the day..for that someone...as for me..im just one hell of a freak for desperate housewives and heroes.

cheers